`{ ♔ b a n i )

fujin | romance geek | 20+ | pans
loves complex & interesting relationship dynamics in stories. poignant love stories are what I live for.

I stan well-executed love/hate and hate/hate dynamics, as rare as they are; I tend to like angsty, pining, antagonistic, twisted, obsessive, or psychological / dark pairs. bickering and destined rival couples have also ruined my life.likes to read manga. sometimes draws/writes. likes chara/fashion design. gif/edit maker. I love slashy fan animated MVs. merch / doujin collector. JRPG gamer.

fandom network.

fandom network.

fandoms.

always: D.Gray-man / Yullencurrently:
The World Ends With You / JoshNeku
Checkmate (TAN), I Have to Be a Great Villain
actor/idol BL webtoonssporadic:
Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint / JoongDok
danmei (SVSSS, Priest)
Shizaya (from Durarara!!)
Hannibal (NBC) / Hannigram
Soukoku (from Bungou Stray Dogs)
Code Geass | SuzaLulu
Ace Attorney / WrightWorthship spreadsheet bc I'm insane: link (ask for full version)fav manga: Silver Diamond (Sugiura Shiho)
fav BL manga: Double Mints, Koimonogatari, Tight Rope, Kurayami ni Strobe & Utsusemi ni Akari, Kuchizuke wa Uso no Aji (list)
fav BL/slash mangaka: Sugiura Shiho, Ogawa Chise, Natsume Isaku, Nakamura Asumiko, Yoneda Kou

info & warnings.

very tl;dr, feel free to skip | 18+ only | occasionally nsfw
I don't actually care for nsfw much tho lol unless it's 3 specific kinks (sorry, I can't read most of the PWP ppl link me unless it's emotional).If you police others for what they ship based on morality and are going to be an asshole, don't let me befriend you by accident.I ship very problematic ships. You won't find apologism here about it nor will I entertain assholes who ostracize others based on which anime barbies they want to kiss or hold hands.If you want to insist "weh weh fiction effects reality"--sure, but moot--you better damn well also insist that video games and anime cause violence. You sound exactly like the 60 y/o men in Japan trying to cancel anime bc a killer tried to stab someone and blamed it on anime lol, or the same bible thumping white Christian moms against series for being satanic. All wrongs committed or harmful ideology ingrained are the fault of the perpetrator or poor parenting, not the fiction they claim to base their crimes on. If you can't separate fiction from reality, find a different hobby.

I am unamused by those who have "DNI if you ship adult/minor" in their byfs but then also ship JoshNeku. Read the secret reports. Nomura confirmed Josh's Composer form as that of an adult in the guidebook. You're in denial at this point, and Shouka is most likely mentally 18+; extremely unlikely she became a Reaper at ≤ 14. And Fret>Kanon... you're putting SE on your DNI yourself lol.
Zines and many fans are already putting JNs on DNIs. Stop ostracizing your own fellow JN fans from events. It's hypocritical and makes the fandom toxic.

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I find it ridiculous that people accuse me of fetishizing my mlm ships because I use the fujin label to express that I stan queer romance, when I am wlw and don't even read smut 80% of the time. I skim the smut in most fics unless it's really emotional/well written.addendum: Actually, you know what, now that I can finally say itーI'm especially avoidant of het these days (unless I'm in the mood) bc I was in love with a woman who never even returned my friendship to a similar level in the end, who's on track to marrying a dude, and now 95% only ships/reads het, so you know what? Let me heal my broken heart in peace.That said, sometimes I can be judgemental myself, because I tend to not like shallow things (depending), and I dislike works/fans who lack self-awareness. For me, most things will be a matter of attitude.Also, I won't be ship wanking much on twitter bc twt doesn't really use tags, but be warned that I am not free of ship wank lol. In general, I complain a lot and I have picky standards.

I have bad generalized anxiety and clinical depression like a rollercoaster. my venting will be tagged // vent. If there's a better tag, please lmk. I tend to get heavy bc I always seem to think that nobody is actually looking/reading and I'm yelling into the void...I tend to be very loving to my friends and quite savage/brutal to people I dislike, especially if they've hurt my friends. I am salty af but have been working on being less negative for many years.That aside, I am very extroverted,
so if you're okay with me, please feel free to talk to me & chat me up.

games.

favs: TWEWY | Hashihime of the Old Book Town (Kawase) | DRAMAtical Murder (Clear) | Devil Survivor 2 | Ace Attorney | Zero Escape | Steins;GatePlease tell me your in-game names when adding,
otherwise I might reject.nu:Carnival: 859056335 | invitation code: T8BVXU
Twisted Wonderland: aAmS8pYR (EN) | X1NsznJ4 (JP)
ProSekai: 211534421919064064 (EN) | 208834809321578502 (JP)FFXIV:
Bani Aizou@Leviathan
Allen Walker'@Sargatanas (looking for Aether FC)
FFXIV Discordcurrently also playing: Final Fantasy 7R, FFXIV, Uuultra-C, Genshin Impact
queue: Persona 5 Royal, Nier Replicant, Prince Maker, Dai Gyakuten Saiban, Miles Investigations 2, VLR, Devil Survivor 2( inactive accounts ) →

GBF: 30082897 @kusogaymesBanG Dream! (EN/JP) (ask)ACNH twitter (inactive)Gaia Online: B a n i i t a
(lol)

contact.

Friend Discord Server: privatter post (or ask)
(fav people invited mainly unless I didn't think you'd be interested; multi-fandom role-locked channels; #boys-love, #danmei-bl, #omniscient-readers-vp, #jujutsu-kaisen, JP study resources, genshin)depression blog: ask if close. I use my server's #vent-salt otherwise, which you can ask access for.